[F30lolz]

December 2015, my grandmother on my fathers side passed away due to health reasons.

October 2017, my grandmother on my mothers side passed away due to a toothache and that she was allergic to a medication.

July 2018 my cousin (42) was murdered by her bf who pushed her in front of a subway train in Brooklyn IIRC and the coward took his own life as well.

December 2018 my aunt who taught me how to drive stick in a then new 96 Eclipse passed away after feeling ill, went to the hospital and passed away. Only mid 60’s.

February 2019 my stepgrandfather (mother’s side) passed away due to health reasons.

Also my wife has lost her mother October 2015 and her uncle November 2016.

I have not grieved over the loss of my family members and cannot figure out why. Maybe I still cannot comprehend it or I am just avoiding grieving. Has anyone dealt with similar experiences?